Thursday, May 3, 2012

Who is she, Part 35



                                                                                         Part 35

Babuji and Amma were waiting at the door of the house. It was obvious Khalid had told them about my encounter with the army but they couldn’t have known about the slaps, had they known, Amma would have been howling. She hugged me; Babuji patted me gently on the back. This was the first time he had touched me since I had come, this meant a lot.
“Don’t you worry, whenever these people see a new face, they do ask questions” Amma said, trying to sound as normal as possible. Babuji didn’t say anything, he looked at me thoughtfully,  with  a slight worried expression on his face.
“Come let’s sit in the baithak” ,Babuji said. The drawing room was referred to as the baithak.”Khalid, get us some tea, will you?” We walked into the baithak.  Babuji occupied his chair and I sat down on the floor. Babuji was giving me an intense look. I could still feel a burning sensation on the cheeks. They had hit me so hard that it was a distinct possibility that the marks of their fingers were visible. In any case, my face must have looked red. The slaps had not hurt me physically, I didn’t feel any pain at all but they had wounded and bruised me badly inside. My ego had been hurt, my self-respect had been shattered. No one had ever slapped me. Babuji had never ever lifted even a finger to hit me. Amma had, many a time, stopped Babuji from hitting me. The question of Lalaji or Bahuji beating me or hitting me just did not arise, they were too scared of Babuji and Amma to even think of doing anything to hurt me. And now these insensitive sons of b…..s  were the ones to make me realize what it felt like being physically hit. Anger welled up inside me. I wished I had hit back, I felt like going out again and beating up both those bloody soldiers black and blue. They were not soldiers, they were cowards. Beating up unarmed and innocent people for no reason at all was a crime. They should be hanged.
“They hit you, didn’t they?” Babuji must have surely guessed everything from my looks.
“Yes, they slapped me”.
“Bittuji, I had told you this is not a place for you to stay, I wanted you to leave with Bhaisahab, I knew such an incident would take place one day or the other and I wanted to save you from all this but you didn’t listen”.
“Babuji, does that mean this place is not safe and if you know it is not safe, why didn’t you agree to come with us?”
“We have been living here since the trouble started, we know what to expect. You have no idea of anything. All this is totally alien to you, it is natural for you to feel shocked, and you have never known this present Kashmir before”.
“You agree then that things are not normal here?”
“I never said they were normal, what I said was that we did not have anything to fear”.
“If you do not have anything to fear, why should I be afraid, what is different for me?”
‘Bittuji, you are too young to understand all this, this is not the age for you to face all this”, Babuji was talking to me as if I were a kid. He seemed to have forgotten that I was in my twenties.
“Aren’t there any young men living in Kashmir or have they all left?’ I asked in a slightly sarcastic tone.
“You know very well that almost all the Kashmiri Pundits have left and that includes young men as well” Babuji was getting a little irritated.
“I am not talking only about Kashmiri Pundits, Babuji.  Has the Muslim youth also run away?”
“You are asking too many questions, Bittuji and I don’t have to answer you. Here comes the tea, it will help you to relax”. Khalid offered us the tea. I was not particularly keen to have tea but I started sipping anyway.
“I want know the answers, Babuji, I want to know why a peaceful Kashmir has turned into a warzone?”
“Why did Punjab turn into a battlefield? Wasn’t Punjab a peaceful place? You were there and you should know the answers, shouldn’t you?”
“You are trying to change the topic. Punjab was a different case altogether. You tell me about Kashmir”
“Well, since you are going to be here for some time now, you will see things for yourself. Whatever I tell you will be my point of view, I don’t want you to be influenced by my opinion, I want you to see the situation for yourself and have an independent view of your own” This sounded very reasonable to me. I also did not want to go by what others thought. The morning’s incident had taught me something, if not much, it had become clear to me that the security personnel did not like the Muslims.
“Khalid, when you went to the market in the morning for buying meat etc, there was no curfew, was there?” Babuji asked.
“No Babuji, at that time everything was normal, people were moving around freely”
“What must have happened to make them impose the curfew?”
“Babuji, I just met  Hamid Sahab” Abdul Hamid was our next door neighbor and his had been the only Mulim  family in our vicinity. “He said many people were killed in Lal Chowk. People were taking out a procession shouting slogans of Aazadi when they were fired upon. Hamid Sahab had no idea about how many lost their lives but he said the number was quite large. There is great anger among the people, Babuji” Khalid said, his own voice reflecting that anger.
“What the hell is wrong with the Indian army and this stupid government? When will they learn to face the truth? When will the army get to know that firing on innocent, unarmed people is cruel and inhuman? Why don’t  they understand that they are only aggravating the problem by their mindless acts?” Babuji sounded angry as well as disturbed.
“Babuji, do you favour this demand for Aazadi? Isn’t Kashmir a part of India?”
‘’No, it isn’t, ”Babuji almost shouted. “When was Kashmir a part of India? Read history, Bittu and you will come to know the real facts.” These words of Babuji took me by surprise. I had always considered Kashmir to be an important state of the country. Why was Babuji saying that Kashmir had never been a part of India? I was beginning to think that old age had begun to have its effect on Babuji’s mind. As I was wondering whether Babuji had gone senile, an army officer walked into the room without even having the courtesy of announcing himself, at least, by knocking at the door. I had a look at the lapels on the shoulder of his uniform. He was a captain of the Indian army.
“Good afternoon, Mr. Raj Nath. Is Khalid at home?”
“Hello, captain, why do you want to see Khalid?” It was obvious that these two had met before. They seemed to be familiar with each other.
“Khalid broke the curfew rules and he also tried to attack one of our jawans. We have to take him away for interrogation”.
“What the hell do you think you are doing? Khalid did nothing of that sort. If anyone has to be arrested, it should be those two Jawans who beat up my innocent son’’
 Babuji had got up from his chair and he was furious.
“Calm down, Sir, I am only doing my duty. We have information that Khalid is part of a terrorist group, responsible for the killing of many Pundits”.
“You are fully aware that what you are saying is a bundle of lies. What has happened to you people? Have you sold off your soul to the devil, where is your conscience? Why don’t you simply come to the point and admit that your job is to eliminate all the Muslims of Kashmir? You have gone mad and so has your Indian government.  You can arrest me for this statement for being a traitor but I care two hoots. You can arrest Khalid but over my dead body” .Babuji had now run amuck, even if I had tried I could not have stopped him.
The selfish man that I was, I could think of only one person and that was Anita. I had not told Babuji that Anita was going to come to Srinagar. After what I had seen today and what I was seeing at that time how would Babuji react to Anita’s coming to this place? For the first time I wished that Anita would cancel her trip to Srinagar, I did not think of what Khalid might have to face, it was Anita and only Anita that occupied my mind!


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